I thought we would watch our careful stepping,
Although I can't find yours today,
I am not sure behind or ahead,
I don't think it matters anyways,

Where are you..
These sheets are cold and I feel so exposed,

I still have tears falling from the night before,
They lead me to look out the door,

The fall breeze seems self deprecating,
Those arms that I need around me,

The arms that held me the night before,
When my legs buckled to the floor,

When I say I don't need you,
I need you the most,

Humbled to think any other feeling could be better company,

I learned how to cry again in your arms,
I feel defeated,
I feel shallow,
I have surrendered to the gods my heart,

I place it in your hands,
Whatever is left,
I give you my word it is there,
....and I give up