Deep in thought from this repetitive dance,

I am not fishing,

There is no bait,

I am throwing my reel into these deep waters,

It is not defeat but perhaps I am simply tired,

Dont we all try to hold those who do not wish to be held?

When you see the love of forever in someones eyes its overwhelming,

The perfect blue magic of the sky.....

I walk the sandy shores with my dog along side,

I remember your arms,

When the  sunrise would mean a beautiful day with you, 

I guess I lack knowing where it all started.
I am skipping right to the end.

The betrayal I must deserve.

I was crying with snot dripping down my face.
Opening up trying to tell you how scared I am.

She yelled at me to stop crying.

Your half truths.
Your one foot in.

My note book of pain hidden away....

The pain you caused and now your lies...

Everything feels so different. 

I feel so alone in this world, 

I ache for words.

Soft touch and understanding.

Reaching for anything to make anything worth something. 

My words feel like shallow unmarked graves upon deaf ears. 

Fuck I feel so alone,