I remember you said I was so beautiful,
You said how could someone not desire you?

I would feel safe and desired in your arms,
I felt beautiful and worthy of such things,

I wanted to feel your strength against me,
I craved the softness you would also bring,

Now I feel like all I have is the distance between between,

I want so much to trust that this is real,
That anything is real at all,
I feel dead in my heart,
My eyes feel empty and lacking soul,

I thought about my belt around my neck,
I thought about it,
I thought about a bloodied tub,
I thought about it,

I thought a lot,
I wondered if I would get to see you again if I did,
I feel like I have no one,
I feel empty and alone,

I miss it when your hands loved my skin,
The days before all I had left were tears,

When you would kiss me and hold me,
The days before all I had left were tears,

I can not see a light to guide me home,
The darkness of the night found its way deep inside,

You don't love me the way in which I love you,