I want so much to trust that this is real,
That anything is real at all,
I feel dead in my heart,
My eyes feel empty and lacking soul,

I thought about my belt around my neck,
I thought about it,
I thought about a bloodied tub,
I thought about it,

I thought a lot,
I wondered if I would get to see you again if I did,
I feel like I have no one,
I feel empty and alone,