It really doesn't matter when you leave,
When your leaving anyways,
The longer you stay,
The deeper the knife,

I am left here alone,
So much like before,
Its just worse this time,
Beat down like before,

I don't want you to go,
I can't make you want to stay,

Hey you she says "your a sensitive one"
I know , I know, I know I am ,
I feel your strength and I feel your eyes,
I have stalled out and I need a kick start,

I am complicated,
I am a funny one,
I am a little everything,
I am a broken one,

Its just another complex day,
I never quite know what to say,
I only know that I want you near me,
I want you to want to stay,

If you are going to rip my heart out,
They my darling go right ahead,
This happyness is worth the pain,
My darling go right ahead,

fix me (your springtime coffee 08)

I don't know how to fix myself.

I walk and feel the stone cold air,
Penetrates through my skin,
Extreme is all I can feel,
Its all I can really feel,

I could walk right across this highway,
Like a ghost of myself,
A distant memory,
A ghost of how we were everything,

I look in your face and I am sometimes so lost without you,
I look in your face and you are not there,
I look in your face and I am sometimes so lost without you,
I look in to the ghost of your memory,

I lay on the hardwood floor and I heave,
I lay on the hardwood floor and I cry,

Here I am,
Spinning out of control,
alone,
vacant,
Distant,
Feeling obsolete,

I wish you would just stop me,
Put your hands upon my face,
Stop taking my wooden nickles,
Knock me back down in to place,

Tell me that you love me,
Tell me you want me to be the one,
Tell me that you believe in love forever lasting,
and I am special.. not just anyone,

Here I am,
Spinning out of control,
alone,
vacant,
Distant,
Feeling obsolete,

I am broken I am lost,
Iam here but I am not,

Just scream at me stop it stop it,
Stop being so lost in your head,
Just fucking scream at me,
Get me the fuck out of my head,

here I am

Here I am,
Standing peering in to a window,
I see your friend singing,
My heart pounds,
My hands shake,
I keep walking,
Wondering if you are inside,
I keep walking,
Thinking,
Walking,
I am sad,
Broken,
Walking,

October 13th

I love you,
I wake up,
I fall asleep,
I see your face,

rinse and repeat....

I love you,
I desire you,
I miss you,
I see your face,

Coffee in bed,
Smiling face,
Your eyes,
your eyes,

I love you.......

FAAK
FAAK

Big Spoon....

I have a black cloud over my love,
A black cloud over my heart,
I think I am a little in love with you,
I think I have obligations,
I think I am not sure,
I think I am a little in love with you,

You can be my big spoon,
I am gonna be the little one,
Then I will be the big spoon,
and you can be the little one,

I think I am bruised from the inside out,
I am not sure where you came from,
I am a little in love with you,
Your eyes are perfect blue/grey
I would try and find the words
If I knew what to say

I can't ask for this much patience
I have earned no trust
but I am a little in love with you
I am a little in love with you