I think about you almost everyday,
I wonder if you are happy,
I wonder if she understand you the way I did,
I wonder if she is open with you the way I was,

I wonder about a lot of things.....

I walk with my dark passenger,

We walk together like every other day before....

I can see the lives behind us in your eyes,
My heart has always been in your hands,

I want us to share this life together,
I push for to much to fast,

Your shoulders big as mountains,
Framed like a house.. I want to crawl inside,

I crave arms wrapped around me from behind,
No reason,
No mystery,
Just love,

I miss you today and I miss the way things were,

I miss the way things could have been,

Driving around,

Your coffee mug twisted shut,

The way I would touch your hand,

The way I would let you know that I was there,

Back to the sorrow and being unable to eat,
Great for other peoples eyes,

I lay here at night and I roll over,
I toss and turn,
My mind wonders,
My wanderlust sends me away,

The magnetic pull that brought us here,

Now full of empty space,

Wishing your arms were open,
Looking down at mine crossed on my chest,
Full of sad broken me,
Wanting you to be something I cant seem to be,

I remember lessons that I guess I gotta learn,
I remember all the things and I can't seem to let go,
My heart like woodgrain,
Like a stump with the rings,

Showing years,
Showing time,
Showing all of me,
Broken by time,

This pit is black and the walls are caving in,
They are heavy wet earth,
The sun feels like less and less,
The days feel shorter.... further between,

I am broken and there is no fake pill to lift me up,
I have nothing but broken shattered bones and a aching heart,

Full of sad broken me...

October 13th,
I should have died that day,
Everything in my life,
Fell apart that day,