Trying,
Treading,
Drowning just enough to remind me I am alive,
I am not down deep enough anymore to really want to die,

I honestly wish I was more clear,
Confident,
Definite,
Anchored,

I look down at my arm........
...and until I find you.......
...and until I find you.........
I wonder if you will be my beacon of light after this storm,
Through the calming waters I will find my new home,