Hot metal,
Its yours,
Mark the spot,
It reminds me,
That you were here,

Full force magnetic,
FUCK,
Since that moment,
Something.............
Click,
Snap,
Crackle,
FUCK,
Something.............

I can't pinpoint,

There is a aching void in my chest that tells me......
It makes me feel,
It lets me know,
...maybe this is beyond my control,

I want to scream up at the sky,
Into this perfect fall night air,
Fuck timing,
Fuck my heart,

Fuck everyone else and there hearts,
Fuck all the promises and Tattoos,
The rings and the words,
I only have this moment now and I want to spend it with you,

Pull up and tell me I am the only one,
I am scared we are all scared,
All we have is a moment and this minute,
I could spend the rest of my days safe in your arms,

and it would be everything more than I could ever dream ,.......

I can't be the reason for your personal disaster.
I can't be the wedge,
I can't be the brick wall,
I won't be any of these things at all,

I feel like I am one sleep away from falling in love with you,
I would ride my moto day and night for those arms,
Its sad because they were never mine to have,
You gotta go back home where you belong,

You gotta go try and fix all your wrongs,
This was never my intention at all,
I point my finger east off you go,
but your only home because I let you go,

I can't be the reason for your personal disaster.
I can't be the wedge,
I can't be the brick wall,
I won't be any of these things at all,

You hold on to a promise like we have all done before,
Sometimes its just paperwork,
Wasted tears on the floor,
Making another huge mistake broken words passing through the door,

If you love me like you say,
You would fight for me,
Day after endless day,
You would say those words,
They would cut me and breathe,

Warm my heart like a fall blanket of leaves,
Hold my heart safe in your hands,
Do anything,
Whatever it takes,
You would say that this is everything,
This is worth everything,

There would be no one else tugging on your heart,
I would go to the edge of the world with you,
I would jump if your hand was in mine,
I would do a lot of things if your hand was in mine,

I fall in love with my own daydreams,
The idea of what could be,
What we could have,
...another life,
...another daydream,

April Showers....

I am in love with the girl from the beach that I met in the summer. I am in love with the girl that gave me her heart and I got scared and kept dropping it. I am in love with the girl with the blue/grey eyes and the ever changing hair colors. I love the girl that is really a woman with beauty and strength. I love the way that my hands would caress your shoulders and move down over your breasts as I straddled you. I love the way that you looked at me. I love your face. I love the smell of your skin. I love your breathe in the morning. I love waking up beside you and feeling your warm body next to mine. I love that you and I are both spoons and how close I would feel to you. I always want promises that I am scared to ask for. I love you. I love you unconditionally. I love how you challenge me in every way. I love that you listen to me. I love hotel room coffee with you. I love three days on the greyhound just to see your face. I even loved the three days home. I love when you fall asleep when I am telling you my feelings, even though it makes me push them down a bit more. I love the way you pour a guiness in to a glass. I love the way that we would jump in to the shower and I would wash your back. I love how you tried to give me time to get sorted. I love you and I am still a work in progress. I love you little tree rat. I am trying so hard to get out of my head. I have fallen behind and I hope you will wait for me.

Smoking drum tobacco,
Coffee and the morning is so cold,
Stuck in my own head,
These are the days a couch is home,

I miss your voice,
sound of your feet on the floor,
I knew every exact sound you would make,
Then your keys would lock the door,

The winter shuffle of cold icy snow filled streets,
You can do it,
I believe in you,
We are going for a walk I would say,

Your love,
Unconditional,

Your love,
Wide open arms,

I don't know how to stop the ache,
I don't know how to make it right,
I wish I knew,
I wish I could,

It is more than a ring,
...more than a tattoo ,

Its this always tugging on my heart feeling,
....pull a string and it always ends at you.