October 13th,
I should have died that day,
Everything in my life,
Fell apart that day,

Big spoon,
Little spoon,
I miss you,
Like I always do,

Riding around,
Vroom Vroom,
I remember how things were,
I miss you

I cant believe it has been a year since you left. I don't think that a day has gone by without the feeling of a void in my life. I can still feel you sometimes. You were and still are the only person that I can count on. I miss you quietly in my own way it seems. I don't have much in common with any of your other friends. I miss you. I miss you everyday. I still feel so far away from everything.

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I remember you said I was so beautiful,
You said how could someone not desire you?

I would feel safe and desired in your arms,
I felt beautiful and worthy of such things,

I wanted to feel your strength against me,
I craved the softness you would also bring,

Now I feel like all I have is the distance between between,

I want so much to trust that this is real,
That anything is real at all,
I feel dead in my heart,
My eyes feel empty and lacking soul,

I thought about my belt around my neck,
I thought about it,
I thought about a bloodied tub,
I thought about it,

I thought a lot,
I wondered if I would get to see you again if I did,
I feel like I have no one,
I feel empty and alone,

I miss it when your hands loved my skin,
The days before all I had left were tears,

When you would kiss me and hold me,
The days before all I had left were tears,

I can not see a light to guide me home,
The darkness of the night found its way deep inside,

You don't love me the way in which I love you,

I am sorry I am like gravel,
I am sorry I can still miss you after all this time.

I remember the last time I heard your voice,
In the cab,
It was June 13th,
It has been 10 months,

I am sorry I am like gravel.
I am sorry I can't just forget you after all this time,