I stop,
deep breathe,
I look around,
Everything is fine,
..but me,
..but me,

I am not alright and I am not happy,
I am tanned deep and darkening,
I wonder....if its from the inside out,
Trained like a circus dog to jump through imaginary hoops,

I put my hand on my chin and look down,
My eyes grow heavy,
My heart is heavy,
I guess its true I always struggle,